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7 years ago yesterday I broke up with the guy before the guy I broke up with one year ago.

So, 7 years of bad luck probably ended last year.

However, if your skin and most cells in your body are renewed over 7 years, then it is only now that the actual me turns out not to know anything about that guy (the one before) and I’m practically revirginated ;-)

She wants to do cool things!

September came in like a ball of confusion and went out like a ball of glowing Tinkerbell-like light.

I shed a lot this month. Not of hair, but excess “stuff” I didn’t need. I feel really good, and hope the habits I both dropped and picked up keep going this way!

He’s really, really charming! As if that’s any surprise.

I had a very quick palm reading tonight, by another Aquarius at a dinner party I went to. Here it is:

• there are two major shifts in my life for what I’m going to be doing. Hopefully the one I’m doing right now is major shift #1. She says I’m successful at both. (It would really suck if major shift #1 is the one after uni where I couldn’t find a job in my field for two years and switched into tech writing instead. That was successful, but not satisfyingly so. The only way I can think of it being OK as major shift #1 is if my current shift is going to be so spectacular, I can sustain it for a lifetime.)
• I have a long life line.
• My heart line is the strangest she’s seen: I have a fork (or a parallel pseudo-join) in it, and one of them ends abruptly, while the other continues and gets stronger. This makes me wonder: if the abrupt end was what I’ve already had, who is the parallel, this mystery love in my life, and shouldn’t they be here already? I do hope I don’t have another abrupt end like I’ve had. I don’t think I can take it. And who would want to be widowed? And I’m not the cheating kind… though I must say I’m a little more open to it now than I was before, to have a backup plan when a relationship goes all kablooey.
• No idea about children, I didn’t ask, she didn’t tell. I hope it’s a given there are. I want three! (Including the one I hope to adopt.)
• I have a strong tendency (and this is true!) to compartmentalize my feelings away from my thoughts. However I have been working, sometimes very hard, on not doing this. And it isn’t always the case, anyway.
• She also says I’m always an optimist. (And if a little occasional cynicism is only frustrated optimism, she’s right again!)

hum… I’m new here and I come from a french state of Canada so I may be writing like an english child. I’m 16 years old and I quit smoking for 4 days yet and the only reason that I’ve quit is because I had the courage to talk to my friend about how I was in love with this girl that I’ve known in school. And opening my heart for the first time of my life to a friend just made me realize that how I was unhappy with myself and how pot closed my eyes on aspects of my life that I’ve never been able to face. Being clean for these 4 days just made me realized how I’ve been such an idiot with people that I really appreciate and really love. Hiding my emotions for the past 16 years just made me realize how it’s tough to be myself and to be able to say to this girl how much she counts for me. I really want to stop this crappy life that I’ve been living in and become myself. If I can stop smoking for a month my mind will be strenghtful enough to not think about that drug again. Well this was my story. and I’m really happy to have the chance to write this to you even if I don’t know you at all. If you want to tell me any stories about anything go for it, it will only give me strenght in this very hard period of my life. Have a nice life SmallVictories.